I am sorry I have been so long in posting...My baaaad. Here is a lil summn I hope you will enjoy!
Thirst
I strive to find some ray of hope, some anchor I can cling to… Once-before you were this way, foul madness was upon you. Such venom once unknown to me, your shrieking spirit now set free… To fill the void inside of you, where our love is supposed to be!
Tell me now my darling… Tell me your sweet lies… That I may face tomorrow… That I may not despise.
Empty words they stain your lips, hoarding anger against the time... Of destinies blood harvest, craving forbidden daemon's wine. Spitting curses your rage increases, awful thirst goes unfulfilled... My own dark thoughts keep straying, poignant thoughts of those I've killed.
Tell me now my darling… Tell me what to give… That I may seek salvation… That I still try to live.
I feel your bloodshot eyes upon me, a thousand restless flies… Feeding on these tender embraces, I would trade you for your lies. I beg of you to now depart, please go and feed upon the masses. Embrace your nature shamelessly, thin out the bleating social classes!
A gift it was I thought to share... with you my tender lover… Seems as if that hope is lost... I wonder will our love recover?
skewl is shit. fuckin' my second day of school I had drama and i didnt even fucking do anything. i hate it. im pretty short tempered... so.. i figured it was better to forget mommys dream of her oldest child making something out of her self. lol... woo. anywho, how goes it?
I can relate to that. School is my biggest problem. I was on homebound and then quit. And then got back into school, recently, and then after spring break was over, I quit yet again. School just isn't for me. Plus i've got bigger plans ahead. And I friggin' hope they come into play and work out. Other wise... I have no clue what I am going to do. lol
Lost in my bitter chanting vigil, desperate for your sweet embrace... I watch uncaring shadows dance, across your lifeless face. I wonder...is it possible, could this be a cruel charade? I find myself entreating you, to drop this awful masquerade.
Will I end up losing you, despite my timely intervention? Somehow lose your loving touch, due to my careless in-attention? Perhaps cruel fate is taunting me; I suppose that could be true... Rejecting voices in my head, my fevered thoughts return to you.
Was that a flicker of your eyelid, or only wishful thinking? Energized by sudden hope, my desperate gaze unblinking... I notice now the altered posture, of your body on the bed... Goddess please forgive me, I won’t accept that you are dead.
I gather up the ritual candles, spread them round about the floor... Intoning phrases from the book, that sacred tome which I abhor. Some subtle noxious odor, suddenly invades the room… Reminding me of gallows stench, black roses when they bloom.
Eyes widen in astonishment, as I realize you are softly speaking. Some sort of evil incantation, to bring about what I’ve been seeking! Scalding tears blur my vision, yet I am sure that I perceive… Alterations in your countenance, changes I can scarce believe!
I watch in dreadful disbelief, your youthful beauty fading… Replaced by something sinister, I sense something foul invading. I flood my mind with memories, things that we used to do. This foul thing sitting on our bed; contains no part of you!
Dark apparition beckons to me, awful golem not quite dead. Beckons me to sit beside her, offering to relieve my dread. Grisly smile distorts her mouth, exposing awful yellowed teeth. Her brittle skin it seems to move, are writhing maggots just beneath?
I embrace this grotesque parody, in remembrance of you… One is such a lonely number, my happiness requires two.
Ya, I freaking LOVE Adema. I don't know many people that even know who they are and it's a damn shame. Have you ever heard of dry cell? If you haven't you can check 'em out on the queen of the damned sound track. I don't know a thing about work. lol Hanging out, YEAH! I actualy have my first job interview soon. Kind of nervous.
haha..that makes alot of scence....hmmm..i never really thought of it that way but yeah..haha..my sisters b-day is also at the end of the year....no wonder she can never think of anything she wants...
Touch the Darkness
