I lay dying in the dark
Waiting for sweet salvation
That might never come
Holding on to each breath
As though it’s my last
Fearful that it actually may be

My eyes once shining
Hold naught but fear
As they watch the darkness coming near
I beg it to stop
Halt! Retreat!
But darkness is deaf
To all but the terror resounding in my heart

My soul seems cold
As though made of ice
Or left out in the cold, and bleak December night
I will myself courage
To stand and ready fight!
But bravery fails
As I fall victim to the night



NuttinButtSexxy

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I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness...


NuttinButtSexxy

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It was never my intention,
To cause you pain,
And there are some things in life,
We can never explain.
I tried to warn you,
Many times before,
But I was always,
So easy to ignore.
So now that I’m gone,
Don’t act like you care,
It makes no difference,
Whether or not I’m there.
You BROKE me, Then FIXED me,
Then BROKE me AGAIN,
I've been playing your mind games,
Ever since before when..
So wipe your eyes,
Dry your tears of Vanity,
I’m sick of your lies,
YOU stole my sanity.
You’re the one to blame,
I’ve come to this,
Can’t you Read your name,
Along my wrist.
I know it’s not perfect,
It’s not A class,
But it’s not that easy,
When using broken Glass.
I fell so sweetly,
For you DEADLY charms,
Could you not see?
My Razor kissed Arms.


NuttinButtSexxy

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written with a pen, sealed with a kiss. If you love me please tell me this. Do you love me or do you not, you told me once but i forgot. So tell me now and tell me true, so i can say i love you too. out of all the girls Ive ever met, you are the one i'll never forget and if i die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you and if your not there on judgement day, i'll know you went the other way. i'll give the angels back their wings and risk the loss of everything, just to prove my love is true... I'll go to hell to be with you ...

This was from my special someone, crazy joe

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this was written for me today by someone very special to me...

Baby I'm yours, yours forever
They say we'll end, and I say never
I'll take your hand as you take mine
We'll show them all our loves devine

We'll prove them wrong, wait and see
As we walk down the aisle you and me
when we get to the end and say i do
we'll live happily together, me and you

I thought that was so sweet I had to put it on here

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Well lets see, today i give up on just about everyone and basically everything. Im goin to start new with new people and new things lol anyway, Im in a weird period in my life right now and i just dont what i need to do.. i know what i want to do but thats not the point, errrr i hate thinkin about shit, it gets on my nerves.. oh well fuck it im starting new thats all i know lol... sorry im

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