have you ever had those days that you wonder if you just dont belong or the one that you love is tired of being with you? To the point it makes you so sad that you cry and you just say your eyes are watering? That would be me Im writing this here because I know no one reads these things because alot of times its just a bunch of crap that one writes to get you to read these.. Thats not me Im writing because I have it on my mind and I cant get it out Im afraid to ask because I dont want to make him made so instead I keep in my head to the point it makes me cry... I know hes who he is and I love everything about him because if I didnt then I wouldnt be in love with him.. Some days I just have the feeling hes tired of me being with him and that hes getting bored with me and that he doesnt want to touch me but I know Im being stupid its just me being parnoid...Like always. But this is how I feel and the way Ive been feeling I love him so much but I dont tell for if I do I think I might scare him away...But this is just me this is whats on my mind this is why I dont share and I know he wont read it because he doesnt read these things anyways so I know I dont have to say anything at all but maybe someday I will......

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Deep in my soul never do I see.
For the darkness keeps it away from me.
All my thoughts and all my words lost and no where to go for if they did the darkness would let me see.
Deep in my soul I can love and know Im loved back.
But yet I get lost in my emotion for my soul is like that.
All these words I hold in my soul never do I see
for if I did then everyone would know the real me.
Deep in my soul only one knows me for he is my life and my soul he is my everything.
My soul he holds and my heart too, but if he
should let go then what would I do.
Lost in my words never do I tell for if I
my soul would be found.
Deep in my soul only one has reached.
For he is my heart and my dream.
Deep in my soul these words that I keep for if
I should share then where would I be.
Deep in my soul only one has found he knows my
soul inside and out.
If you should find your way into my soul then
you made it past my heart.
The one place no one has reached not even those
who I thought were close to me.
Only one has made it past my heart and he is
my love the only one that means more to me
then my life..
Deep in my soul I hide words never to be found
if I should let them out then I would let my
soul out...
Deep in my soul never will on see for if you should then you would know the real me.....
Deep in my soul I hide my love and my dreams
deep in my soul the darkness keeps.
Only one holds the key..
Deep in my soul if you should find? Close your
eyes for your in for a bumpy ride.....
By DARKNESS1968

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lost in the darkness and never to be found.
Always searching for who or what is around.
No words only slince, no light only darkness and
in this darkness our fears appear and to be known by all.
Searching for the one to lead us to where we belong, never wanting to be lost but found but yet never wanting anyone to know that we're around.
Was lost in the light afraid of my own shadow then someone brought me here where my fears never exist.
For the one who showed me to this place where I have no fears only strength, he has my heart and my soul and the only one to be here.
My soul he owns never to let go cause if he should then I'm back to where I started scared of my own shadow.
Lost in the darkness and never to be found only by the one who owns my heart and my soul.
Lost in the darkness never to fear cause for him I know I have nothing but darkness and no fears.
To the one owns my heart and my soul hope he knows that he is my only one.
For no one could ever be what he is to me and he is my only one.

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